I used to be a lot darker. I didn't smile much. I ate too little.
I was freezing cold earlier today. Instead of turning up the heat, I took a very long very hot bath. I stayed in until I felt light headed. I had to sit on the edge of the tub immediately after emerging. I felt very dizzy. It was the same kind of dizzy I used to feel in the summer time when it was hot and I hadn't eaten in two days. I passed out on more than one occasion way back when. Today's feeling made me miss those days.