Thursday, October 27, 2011


First off, this is my first post since I was at 86 posts that I now have more posts than followers (106th post, 105 followers).


Does any one have any insight into dream meaning? I can usually tell from where mine stem but not this one. A few weeks ago I had a dream I was in my friend Erin's wedding but she had two weddings. For the first wedding, all the bridesmaids had to wear white. For the second, we all had to wear blue, but I couldn't find my blue dress. Last night I had a dream about being in Kathryn's wedding. Different location, same thing. Two weddings, the first we all had to wear white, the second we all had to wear blue, but I couldn't find my blue dress. Very odd recurring dream and I can't figure out what it means....

My husband installed Ubuntu on my computer last night. I really like it but I had a small panic attack when he did it without warning me. We had been talking about doing it, but first we had to back up all the files from my computer. Before we did, I had planned to get rid of my thinspo/fitness journals/etc. folders that had all of my ED and related nonsense. And then last night I went into the living room, and there he was, putting it all on his external hard drive. So now my husband has in his possession all of the stuff I never wanted him to find.

In all honesty, I have to be realistic. He is my husband. I don't have any desire to lie to him about this. If he finds out, I will have to talk to him about it and I will do it. But for now, I prefer to keep it to myself. Mostly because he will just think it is stupid. I have posted about this before. And even though I won't lie to him, there are things I don't feel like sharing voluntarily. Oh well. Que sera, sera.

In other news, I start school on Monday. Well, technically Tuesday is my first day of school, but Monday is orientation. It will be so weird being back in school. It feels like so long since I graduated college. I will be working on my doctorate. How grown up.


  1. I rarely recall my dreams. Something similar happened to me. The one time I have trouble with getting some pics out of my camera is the one time I had also just taken some body shots. They all got put on his hard drive. He was probably wondering what was up with that. Oh well...

  2. Ill fix it!! I'm a new follower!!!
    Also, my boyfriend recently discovered my eating disorder...guess i should blog about that lol
    but yey im number 106!!

  3. Normally, I'm real good at dreams. But I don't really know what yours could be. Fear of not fitting in? Fear of being left out of something (like the wedding, if you don't have the dress)? A feeling of only having controle over things half the time? Lol, idk.

    I hope it'll all be alright with your husband, that he won't find out.
    Just stay strong girl!
    Love <3

  4. I normally remember most my dreams- but I tend to not read too much into it..

    I don't like it when hubby hovers over my head when I'm blogging or whatever.. I mean I don't lie to him about it - and we share our life.. But my PC- my blog- my thing.

    And I am glad to say that he respects that I need it to be mine and not ours..

    Just delete the stuff he moved over- if you don't want him to see it. :)

  5. That dream is quite odd.....unfortunately I have no idea what it means either. Maybe do some online research on dream analysis?

    I would freak if ANYONE had my stuff. I can't believe how calm you are about it! :)

    Good luck with you PhD!!