Wednesday, January 4, 2017

I think I did it.

After a hefty meal on one of the last days of 2016 (I no longer remember exactly which one), I wanted very badly to spill it all out in the bathroom. But then it occurred to me: I think 2016 was the first calendar year in many that I have not purged. 

I plan to read through my posts from last year to make sure I am telling the truth, but I think I actually did it. Maybe I can be done with that for good. 

There is another side of me that is thinking "Hey, I accomplished the goal, so I know I am capable, so what difference would it make if I went back to my old habits?? They obviously don't control me."

But for today I am going to choose to be optimistic and think that maybe I can keep my fingers out of my throat for good. 

2 comments:

  1. That's a pretty amazing achievement! Congrats! It's such a great moment when you realize your old self-destructive habits no longer control you, and even if you do get urges, you can work past them. Let's hope the next 12 months will make it two years purge-free :)

    xx

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  2. that is totally an achievement, an important one!
    Let 2017 be another year of improvement :-)
    love honey, good luck with everything

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