I appreciate the previous comments on my last post. I haven't been on here much since my last post. It's been weird dealing with my body's changes. I didn't think it would be this difficult.
It's probably made worse by this COVID pandemic. My midwife urged me to stop working early since my job includes being in close proximity to my patients and the hospital where I plan to deliver has strong restrictions for sick people right now.
I just sit around at home and eat. Most days I can at least motivate myself to walk the dogs and clean the house a little.
The weather has been cold and windy most days so it sucks for going outside.
And today we have a clogged sewer line causing water to back up into our basement, so for today, cleaning is out the window.
The pandemic put our remodeling project on hold (no one wants to go into other people's houses) so I can't get the baby's room ready.
And all the birthing websites talk about how now is the time to "pamper" myself by taking a "babymoon," getting a haircut, a massage, a pedicure, etc.... None of which I can do, because all of those businesses are closed due to the virus.
So I just sit at home inside my own head. I should take the opportunity to exercise like crazy. Supposed to help baby come out faster anyway. But I've been feeling super down and it's so hard to motivate myself to do anything.
My goal for only gaining 15 lbs disappeared at the start of the pandemic. I was doing okay until the beginning of March. I've already gained 25 lbs in total (about half of that in the past 7 weeks), and I have perhaps 2 or more weeks to go. I'm hoping baby shows up early. I know that's rare for a first, but it would be really nice to get baby out of me.
I know 25 lbs is not record-breaking weight gain for a pregnancy, many women gain much more, but I was hoping I wouldn't. Feels like failure.
They say the ninth month of pregnancy is the longest month ever, but I would argue it's MUCH longer when the whole country is at a standstill.
Every day is definitely longer. I am binge watching Once Upon A Time, because it is light and has so many episodes it is like being quarantined with the cast. Hope you can find something that keeps your spirits up for just a little longer.
ReplyDeleteCiao darling,
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to hear from you and OMG I can't believe you are already in you last month!
I'm really sorry that you have to spend such a unique time for you in this lockdown, with 0 possibilities to really pamper yourself as you should be doing. I hope that finally meeting your baby for the first time will at least make up for this!
Stay strong and wishing you the very best of luck
The days are longer and they all blur together... This is such a strange time to live in, and I can't imagine how you must feel being pregnant during it. I've been reading a few articles about the pandemic and our mental health, and how we should be kind to ourselves if we don't feel motivated to be productive or if we gain weight. Which is real hard, I know, especially for this particular crowd. :)
ReplyDeletePlease don’t be too hard on yourself. 25lbs is nothing compared to a lot of women. Plus, remember a lot of non-pregnant people have been gaining quite a bit during lockdown, so all things considered, I think you’ve done amazingly!
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself, and all the best for the final stretch <3
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