Friday, August 1, 2014

All problems are boring, until they are your own

I kind of got away from posting here. For a number of reasons I guess. For one, I only knew about 2 or 3 people who still posted on here, so the reading was sparse. And life was feeling stable, which usually means I slip into some kind of comfortable feeling, and my rational mind kicks in and tells me it's okay to consume the things I consume. 

But I graduate soon. In 7 months I will be officially licensed as a primary care physician. A doctor. A healthcare professional. A chiropractor (which for those of you who don't know, is accredited as a licensed physician). Helping people live healthier lives. 

This is terrifying. 

I don't know where I want to practice. Not even in which state. I feel like a hypocrite every time I give my patients advice on living healthier lives. 

And the stress of this life transition, coupled with the fact that I have done nothing but gain weight since last Thanksgiving (seriously, ten pounds in less than a year) is throwing me back in to that compulsive exercise state, where I eat mostly normally to keep up appearances, and then run 10-15 miles to get rid of it. I call it stress relief but I don't really know if it's working. 

So I don't know if I'm back. This might be one post, or I might be posting again regularly. We'll see. But I have been thinking about it a lot. 

Coffee time.


  1. Good luck finishing up with your studies! Last week I started a job as an office manager for a chiropractor/registered dietician. He gives me free adjustments! I love chiro treatment, ahhhh.... Hope you continue posting. xo

  2. Good luck finishing the last of your studies. You will be great at what you are going to do regardless where you choose to practice. You will understand what many many others don't cause of everything you have gone through your self. You might even be able to see signs other don't and help some one get out of the rabbit hole...

    So if you don't post any time soon, congrats with everything you have achieved :) If you do, I am looking forward to read more from you.

  3. Wow that is amazing that you are going to be a doctor! I used to feel like a hypocrite too, in nursing and trying to tell people how to live healthier lives, but I realized that I do wanna be healthy so I've been trying my hardest to set a good example & eat right for my body.

    It's difficult, that's for damn sure. But, I hope you're doing well, & I'm glad to see you've posted again!
    Hope to see more soon <3

  4. What a huge accomplishment!! You should be so proud. You are trained-you can do it. Yeah, not a lot of reads over here. I don't post a bunch either. My weight is also up which sucks.

  5. Just read every post from now til back here. Felt good to catch up. What prompted me to comment is that I work for a chiropractor. I have a lot of respect for what you do. I love getting adjusted. Good luck with your weight loss goals. I lost over 20 pounds in just under a year so it is possible, girl. I barely tried. Just remembered how bad binging made me feel. Ate a little less because I wanted to avoid that bad feeling. Good luck.. Stay strong. Glad you're back posting again! xo