Dresses

Remember a few posts ago when I mentioned a classmate asked if I had lost a bunch of weight?
I sort of brushed off his comment.

But I have continued to lose weight.
A few days ago I had a practical exam which required me to wear clinic attire (which is typically dress pants and a button down shirt).

Well, I didn't realize just how much weight I had lost. Until I went to get dressed the morning of the practical. All of my clinic clothes: too big.

Had I realized this a day or two sooner, I would have been ecstatic, but not realizing until the day of meant I had to wear over-sized clinic clothes. None of my dress pants have belt loops so I couldn't wear a belt and my pants kept falling down and my shirt kept coming un-tucked. It was awful.

The classmate who made the previously mentioned comment saw me and said "I was right. I knew you had lost weight".

The part that sucks is that, obviously, I don't see it. I think I look the same. All of my clothes are just too big.

The numbers have gone down a lot. Again, I'm sorry I'm too superstitious to share them with you. I want to. I want to tell you what I weigh because it's the lowest I have been since I got married. But (as long time readers will know) I feel like every time I post my weight on here, the numbers go up immediately after. Maybe if I reach an "underweight" BMI, I will let you know. Then at least I have a little room to go up in case my stupid superstitions sabotage me.

Either way, since I finally saw a number this morning that was down to around what I was when I got married, I figured "Hey, I wonder if I can get into my wedding dress".
Tried it on. Too big.

What?! This means I'm actually SMALLER than I was when I got married. Which of course is another small annoyance because I look at wedding photos and think "Man, I wish I was that thin again"
But I'm actually thinner.

I wish I could actually see it.