Yesterday

Went well. It's been difficult since I have been on break from school this week. At school it's easy. My schedule is so packed all day long that I don't have time to eat. But when I am at home, I can eat as much as possible.

I haven't been though.

I made a HUGE checklist of things I need to get done over the break. So far, it has been pretty successful.

Yesterday I had a Greek yogurt for breakfast and a latte for lunch. I then studied (yeah, even though I am between terms, I am already studying for the next one.... nerd... perfectionist... maybe a little of both) and then I went to the gym. I was feeling a little dehydrated so it was tough and after my run my calf cramped up really bad but it was worth it. I never regret it when I run; always regret it when I don't.

My run put me at a 200 Calorie deficit which was great because when I got home, Husband suggested we go to the Olive Garden with his co-worker and his wife.
I filled up on mostly salad, but I did eat a bread stick. I ordered the steak gorgonzola alfredo, ate the steak and two bites of pasta and brought the rest home. husband will probably eat the leftovers.

Today I am getting my hair colored. I am excited for that. My natural color is dusty blond (the grossest of all hair colors) so I am going lighter and getting some highlights. I look much better with light hair. I was always jealous of my sister's gorgeous dark brown hair. It's beautiful. I've tried to get her color before, but it just doesn't work for me. We have very different skin. Fact is, I just look better as a blond.

Want it

A friend who has been working extremely hard with me at school, shared this video with me today. It was to motivate us (as we are on break from school this week but already starting to study for next term).

I am going to watch this video every day for the next month.
I hope you do to.

Getting disordered

My head is getting a little crazy.
I just finished my finals (10 exams in less than a week) and I'm feeling drained. And a little hungover.

Last night my class went out to celebrate and I got pretty drunk. Actually, I started drinking at 3 in the afternoon when my last final got out. But I feel surprisingly good for spending a solid 9 hours drinking yesterday. But a little hungover, just the same.

You know you have an eating disorder when your hangover food of choice is... an apple.

After I had an apple this morning and A LOT of water I went grocery shopping and ran some other errands and now I am warming up some low sodium beef broth with a few carrots thrown in so it feels like food without really feeling like food.

My finals were so crazy though, I haven't run since last Friday, which I'm sure is why the scale has not budged. But I have almost two weeks off from school now so I plan to run six times a week. Today is cold though, and rainy and a little snowy, and I am exhausted so it's a good day for beef broth.

This was a better post in my head. I'm not thinking clearly. I'm stopping here. More to update later.

That feeling when you step on the scale, expecting a certain number, only to find you are literally, exactly ten pounds less than that... Best. Morning. Ever.

More running

I have been averaging around 20 miles that I have been running every week. It has been paying off too! I would like to even be running more but my schedule is crazy. I have still been about 1 pound per week. The only reason this sucks, is that I have been working so hard at it and only losing a pound per week. But it is progress and I am determined to see this through.

I am coming up on finals next week so my life has gotten extra crazy and I am certain I won't be posting on here. I have ten finals in the next two weeks. It's ridiculous. I'm exhausted.

My only concern is that I have been having heart palpitations all day for the past few weeks. I think it is mostly stress and sleep deprivation, but it's really annoying. I wish it would stop.

Short post. Just checking in. Time to study.

Running, running, running

Bella: Thank you for the confidence! I appreciate it. It's definitely the toughest thing I have ever done.

Kitty: That is a good point, I was able to lose a lot eating low carb and it would be nice to go back to that. It has been difficult though with my school schedule. I have been trying not to over-do it on the carbs as it is, packing turkey and cheese rolls for lunch and stuff. The toughest part is that I don't have much for breaks during the day so I tend to pack things I can snack on, like Luna bars; which have a lot of protein, but also more sugar than I could eat on the low carb thing.


According to Daily Mile, I have burned 987 Calories in running today. My first two classes were canceled this morning, so I took the opportunity to go for a good long run. Then this afternoon I was feeling stressed out from one of my classmates (who is a nice person, but he sees the world as very black and white and if you DARE to disagree with him he gets all fired up. He's just too intense for me) so I went outside, and HOLY SHIT it was 60 degrees and sunny outside!!! This is winter in the Midwest?!?! So I skipped my afternoon class and went down to the river to go for another run. It was beautiful out and I felt like I could run forever. I enjoyed the exercise and I think I really needed the sunlight. I am indoors all day every day and it gets depressing.

So then I cam home and cleaned the house, top to bottom. I should've been studying but out place has been filthy for like, two weeks now and we have just been too busy to do anything about it. Since it was so nice out, I opened all the windows and doors and went to town on it.

After all that exercise and cleaning I feel like a new woman! Haha. Now to make some dinner for Husband and then get back to studying.

Blogging

.... Instead of eating.

I have been hungry since I woke up this morning. Didn't help that I was cranky that husband woke me up. He goes to bed a little before me every night and I get up 2-3 hours before him every day. By Saturday I am exhausted and need to catch up, but he always wakes me up around 7am. I was pissed. I have class all day, I study all night, and I have FINALLY been fitting in some regular exercise. I NEED sleep. My body is going to crash. I've been up for about 4 hours and my eyelids are still heavy with sleep. I'm still mad that he woke me up.

Plus, that is probably what has slowed my weight loss. Because I get up any time between 3:30 and 5 am, so I have time for some Pilates and to shower and get ready to be at class at 7am. I then have class all day and I study all night (did I mention I'm taking ten classes?). I don't get to bed until between 11 and midnight. I'm beat.
And I can't get to bed early tonight because we have dinner plans and we will probably be out pretty late. Maybe I will sleep instead of going to church tomorrow. I hate to. I like church. But I need sleep.

And I think the worst part is, he doesn't wake me up for any reason. Since I got up he has spent his entire day working on his computer. Ugh.


Anyway, my average for weight loss has been 1 lb per week. It slowed for a bit. Lowering my food intake couldn't be easier because I am so busy I have basically no time to eat. The problem is, no matter how much I cut back, I physically cannot lose weight without exercising. And it's hard to fit that in. That's why I have been getting up so early, so even if I don't get in any cardio, I have at least done something.

Anyway, that's my rant. I wish I had more to update but that's basically my life right now.