My father-in-law was diagnosed with brain cancer last fall. There is a higher probability we will be moving back east.
And my head is primarily focused on 1) the monetary expense of moving, and 2) how much fatter I am than when I left. Especially because all of my female friends have had children since I moved away and not ONE of them weighs any more than they did pre-kids. Even the ones who have had five children. I don't have the heart to explain that my weight gain was sort of intentional, it feels too hard to explain, so all I have is my larger frame that will automatically signal that I've "let myself go" or was "too dumb to not gain too much weight during pregnancy" (not true, I hardly gained anything while actually pregnant, it was all post-partum, see previous posts)
My husband is likely losing his father in the near future and I'm thinking about losing weight.
Selfish.
I have not changed.
